Mummy mummy, congrats!
You are promoted to Granny!!

I know that if you will be blessing little RJ from above,
and you will be crying tears of joy!

It still hurts to know that you won't be here to see or hold RJ,
but it warmth our heart to know that your biggest wish is fulfilled.

We still miss you lots, Mum.
Lots...

Love,
KX

Happy birthday, Mum

Dearest Mum,

Happy birthday!!

Are you having your favourite Mango Cake with Ah Gong and Ah Mah in heaven?

I showed Jingo your photo yesterday,
and he barked!!

He remembered you!
Who wouldn't?
You were the kindest soul on earth!

And i was wrong not to treasure you....until it's too late.

I love you, Mum.


Love,
Daughter

Dear Mum,

How have you been?
It's been years since you left.

I was browsing some online sites that sell dresses when i chanced upon a black dress with roses pattern on it. It looked like the same dress i bought for you on my wedding...

We also selected that dress for you when it was your last journey....therefore as i recall, tears flowed down my cheek.

Don't worry Mum, i have become stronger.

And who says i cannot miss you, and who says i have to stop talking about you, telling people about my mum who loved me with all her heart.

I do talked to son about you...he is five now and he still remembers you. Sometimes, late at night....when we are at the topic of family, he would mention you, telling me that you went heaven.

Mum, there is no way i can turn back the clock and amend for my mistake, i regret on the way i have treated you. And you know that i have always loved you as my mother, always wanted you to have a better life. But caught up in demand in life, i neglected your feelings and took you for granted.

I am sorry.

Love,
Daughter..

Dearest Mummy,

It's been 3 years and i still misses you alot.

We recently shifted you over to Wesley's new place, hope you like it!
Well, you might miss the 'noise' our two dogs made right??

I often told Kayton,
"One day, when mummy dies, you must be strong and do not cry, take care of Daddy and Boon Lay Ah Gong too!"..

And i tell myself,
i must make sure he is well taken care of when i am gone..
just like you did.

You might already know,
as we have told you many times when we were praying to you,
Wesley getting married in June,
and they are busy preparing for the wedding now.

In-laws are nice friendly people,
Wesley is fortunate to have met Yvonne and i am so glad that she is the ONE!

I haven't dreamt of you for a long time,
but on the night of your 3rd year,
i did had a feeling that you 'visited' me...

I know i will have your blessing wherever i am,
and i know that i have not lost your love.

Just like you have not lost my love for you too..

I miss you, Mum.
And if i could turn back the clock,
i would have treated you with more concern and love.

Not barking you around..
behaving like an ass-hole infront of you..
You must be heart-broken but too kind to tell me how hurt you felt!

I miss you..

Dear Mum,

How had you been?

I have been dreaming of you very often lately...
It's a mixture of sadness yet happiness when i woke up from these dreams as i do get to see you again....
yet sadness as i miss you so so much.

MK and WJ are finally married,
you must be smiling in heaven when they said their vows...

Every time when things do not go my way,
and my road ahead seems to be bumpy,
i would think about how life was so hard on you,
and how you would never complained,
this will be where i draw my courage and energy from.

If you could withstand these hardships and make sure we are properly fed,
how could i complain about mine?

Mine would be nothing compared to what you been through...

I wish i had told you how much i appreciate you,
how much i love you...


Thank you and i love you, dearest mum..

Dear Mum,

How have you been, Mum?

There are so many things i want to tell you,
and many good news that i want to share with you.

The happiest of them all would be,
MK's ROM with WC!

Your dream had come true,
they will ROM on 060609!

And the next good news is that,
i am promoted.

With a pay rise,
of course,
this would means greater responsibilities and lesser time with Kayton.

Lately,
i kept crying.
I kept having images of you in my mind.

And i would be overwhelmed by the sadness i felt in me.

Mum,
i wish i would see you in my dreams!
I just miss you so so much!


KX

Dear Mum,

In another two days,
it will be Chinese New Year!

And it will be different without you!

You used to look forward to the Chinese New Year,
as you could play with us in rounds after rounds of poker cards,
and you never did understand you cannot get a dealer to count the total number of points you got in your cards!!

Bro and i never spared you yeah,
we kept making fun of you,
trying to win you in every round.

And sometimes,
we tricked you into showing us your cards!

These are fond memories,
yet it draw tears to my eyes as i recalled them!

Go in peace, Mum.
Do not worry for us,
you have fulfill your duty as a mother,
and you had done a great job.

You were selfless,
always putting our interest above yours,
as a result,
it cost your life.

I am so sorry for being such a selfish daughter,
if only i had been more understanding and loving towards you...

If only.


KX