Dear Mum,

How had you been?

I have been dreaming of you very often lately...
It's a mixture of sadness yet happiness when i woke up from these dreams as i do get to see you again....
yet sadness as i miss you so so much.

MK and WJ are finally married,
you must be smiling in heaven when they said their vows...

Every time when things do not go my way,
and my road ahead seems to be bumpy,
i would think about how life was so hard on you,
and how you would never complained,
this will be where i draw my courage and energy from.

If you could withstand these hardships and make sure we are properly fed,
how could i complain about mine?

Mine would be nothing compared to what you been through...

I wish i had told you how much i appreciate you,
how much i love you...


Thank you and i love you, dearest mum..

Dear Mum,

How have you been, Mum?

There are so many things i want to tell you,
and many good news that i want to share with you.

The happiest of them all would be,
MK's ROM with WC!

Your dream had come true,
they will ROM on 060609!

And the next good news is that,
i am promoted.

With a pay rise,
of course,
this would means greater responsibilities and lesser time with Kayton.

Lately,
i kept crying.
I kept having images of you in my mind.

And i would be overwhelmed by the sadness i felt in me.

Mum,
i wish i would see you in my dreams!
I just miss you so so much!


KX

Dear Mum,

In another two days,
it will be Chinese New Year!

And it will be different without you!

You used to look forward to the Chinese New Year,
as you could play with us in rounds after rounds of poker cards,
and you never did understand you cannot get a dealer to count the total number of points you got in your cards!!

Bro and i never spared you yeah,
we kept making fun of you,
trying to win you in every round.

And sometimes,
we tricked you into showing us your cards!

These are fond memories,
yet it draw tears to my eyes as i recalled them!

Go in peace, Mum.
Do not worry for us,
you have fulfill your duty as a mother,
and you had done a great job.

You were selfless,
always putting our interest above yours,
as a result,
it cost your life.

I am so sorry for being such a selfish daughter,
if only i had been more understanding and loving towards you...

If only.


KX

Dear Mum,

Still miss you so much!
Even though it had been months since you left.

Bro had a dream of you some weeks ago,
and hahaa,
you scare the hell out of him!!

Is it you,
or just a dream?

I hope that you are reborn into a good family by now...
A pair of doting parents,
some lovely and caring siblings that love and protect you.

Mum,
i miss you.


KX

Dear Mum,

How have you been, Mum?
Missed you....and the missing never stop.

I had many dreams lately about you.

Are you holding on and not moving on?
Please do not worry about us and continue your journey in peace.

I am wearing a pendant that you gave me,
and every time Kayton sees it,
he would tell me that you gave it to me.

And when i asked if he misses you,
he would nod his head and replied YES.
Then proceed to ask me where are you now?

I would tell him that you are in heaven,
watching over us.

I love you, Mum.


KX

Dearest Mum,

How have you been?

Another few days time, it would be 6 months since you left us.
We still miss you LOTS.

Thank you for blessing us from above.
Things are fine.
I am taking up a part-time course,
MK seems to be doing well in his new job,
Willie too.

And Dad got his hearing aid,
so is able to participate in more of our conversation.

Please do not worry for us,
continue your journey in peace and eternal happiness.


KX

Dear Mum,

How have you been?

I was watching Money Not Enough 2 with Willie just now and i cried my heart out.
How much emotional pain you must be going through on days when i was rude to you!

I just want you to know that,
i have always felt very guilty after i vented my frustration on you,
i have always wanted to say 'i am truly sorry' to you.

But pride stopped me.

And what make this guilt stays on for so long is that,
i have never gotten a chance to repay you properly.

I remembered when i was young,
and just started out to work,
i would treat you to a nice meal.

But, when i had my own family,
i was consumed by my own selfishness,
you were no longer my priority...

Can you hear me now?
Are you watching me from above?

If you are,
i would like you to know that i am truly sorry and that i love you.

Mum,
do accept my apologies and continue with your journey in eternal peace.


KX